Eventually, as expected, AF showed her ugly face in a major way. The last little chance we had at semi-natural parenthood floated away with our last two frosties last week. Looks like adoption it is. Somehow, despite my disappointment, I refused to let the hubs fall into his usual consoling routine. We immediately called our social worker and set an appointment to finish our Home Study and get ready for our first foster-to-adopt placement. I've been here before. Sometimes, the best thing for getting out of my feelings of despair is to move right along toward something that can provide another means of light in my life. In past instances, it was looking forward to our next FET and the process of trying it all again. This time, its plowing through the adoption process in an effort to bring what we've always hoped for: a child we can raise and be grateful to love.
It was SUCH a good idea to start the certification process before we were ready to bring a child home. Doing IVF is stressful on its own, and adding classes, home visits and background checks is just icing on the cake. However, coming to the end of the IVF road so abruptly, it's nice to know we won't be forced to feel around in the dark for our next move. Our social worker has been so great. She encourages us to feel heartened by the fact that we have so much to offer any one (or two, as the case may be) of the littles that the state is seeking parents for right now. Luckily, in our area, there are too many little babies waiting for forever homes, and we can't wait to bring them in!
After finishing up our last visit, it turns out that we have only a week or so left to wait for our Home Study to be complete. Our social worker made sure that we understood that she would likely be calling us about a placement before long. She asked us to have things like a crib, car seat, stroller, etc all ready to go, as "the call" comes somewhat abruptly. I'm sure they will wait until we are out of town visiting friends or on vacation somewhere before the phone rings, but hey...who's complaining?! All I know is that happiness, for us, will come