I realize it's been a month or so since my last, really hard post. Since then I've received some emails, flowers, messages, and texts offering encouragement. Wow. They were so sweet! People ARE genuinely kind and I appreciate it so very much.
After that rough weekly scan and the bad prognosis for baby B, I talked with my rabbi and prayed some too. Just before week 12, we lost baby B...may his memory always be for a blessing. His problems were just too insurmountable and our pregnancy was left with two very viable and quickly developing remaining beans. We took a while to grieve him, and remembered well that Gd commands us to move on in life and cultivate what you have left. So...here we go.
We saw our MFM doctor in Houston and did some testing. A and C showed no signs of malformation or disease and all the markers were present and looking good for two healthy babies. We did a procedure to drain B's sac of fluid, and though he'll remain there until birth, the other two beans will have more room to grow as they need it. Since he's no longer using it, B gave up his space to them. The lab will run DNA testing to see what may have caused the problems and we'll prepare to raise our remaining two.
Today, I'm in my second trimester, and at 14 weeks, 2 days, babies A and C (the new B they're calling him now) are growing well. They're the size of large peaches, they've got fingers, toes, nails, and pretty little eyes too! Occasionally, I feel them flip flop around in there, especially after a big glass of orange juice. Most of the time, we get along well, but we have our rocky moments.
First trimester was hard. I was sick a lot, tired even more, and starved despite eating 2200 calories a day. Now, I force feed myself even though I'm ravenous. I get sooooo super hungry, but once I sit down to eat, I just...can't. The food aversions change everyday. Right now, I cannot STAND the following in my presence:
- Lays potato chips - watermelon - chicken (any kind, cooked any way) - seafood - mangoes - avocados
I don't get it. These used to be my favorite things! Now? I'm reduced to grapes and Easy Mac at 2 am every night. I know, it's shameful and disgusting but....the beans demand it! Most times I just try not to piss them off. When they stage a revolt, the whole house knows about it.
I was finally released to my regular OB last week, so I'll get to see her soon. I'll try to remember to post pics of my second trimester ultrasound. We're not finding out the sexes, which seems to be hard for others to swallow, but hang in there. The surprise will be worth it!